It looked impossible & unreal at first.
It infact looked insane,
Yet, it was possible,
For him it was.
"If someone could do it,
Then I can!"
I thought to myself, "Well, will it be possible for me to do it though?"
Yet, taking the steps, I took off,
Starting this journey as if I knew what I was doing.
No, actually, as he who I saw did it already.
For in all ways, there were questions within me asking if I could do it.
But I looked up to him and was doing it anyway.
For the first few steps I was moving in amazement of the "I can do it too" fact.
But, in a little while, my focus and attention shifted too quickly.
From the "I can do it too" to "but how long do I think I can last doing it?", "the reality on ground is too real than what you're doing", "what if? Just what if?", "This situations seem to encumbering for this to be real", "maybe it's fake, just fake, I can't really be doing this".
Thoughts began to sink into my head
But I didn't know,
I didn't know that the more those thoughts flooded my head, the more I was sinking where I was.
I could no longer do it.
Fear had taken grip immediately after my doubts rose.
I could no longer see Him.
It was as if he wasn't right there still doing it.
I couldn't find that thoughts that could say "but you know, he's doing it despite all these things"
Well, he used his 'ability to do it' to help me.
That was after I finally got my thoughts together, that all these thoughts were too much that they only sunk me.
After that realization, I found my voice to call out for help in fear.
Yes, I was helped,
But, no, I didn't finish the journey as I desired.
I couldn't, because I had unneeded thoughts , doubts & fears of the reality.
I replaced my sights with the reality.
I was seeing HIM doing it but I got it all replaced with the so called "reality" of impossibilities.
I couldn't, I just couldn't exercise the ability I actually had.
It was indepth, yes, but it couldn't come out because I doused it with my doubts.
But now I know better.
Now I know to let go of my doubts to avoid fears.
I know to deal with fear that may arise,
I know to "not think, but instead focus!"
I know to fix my sight on him than whatever reality I was facing,
To forget the roughness & narrowness of the journey & see Him,
To take situations & circumstances as not existing & remain focused!
